Thursday, April 26, 2007

I want to see mountains again, mountains Gandalf!

as i have been quite boring this winter and have had lack of things to blog about i will continue that tradition today.

I have decided to post a link to my most recent facebook album because it's funny.

so there.

i wish i had things to write about... I mean sure I could type about how I miss my friend who lives in thailand now, and that we used to just... get each other... or type about how i am taking the GRE in just under ... eek! 36 hours! and i don't know if I am prepared or not, but I dont really care...

or I could type about how the world's going to hell in a handbasket and I want to do something about it, but the system is so fucked up it seems that to change it i'd have to play evil until I can get in and fuck everyone to get it to go right...

I dunno. I could type about going back to the island and how for the first time since I started I will be going without a really great friend to share it with... i am dreading post-season... there will be no one... my biggest fear might be glimpsed.

anyway, I wish i could be articulate and deep like jessica, and type things that are meaningful and interesting to read, but I can't really think of how to formulate them. My european journal is the most interesting thing I have ever written without having a grade assigned to it. I felt so inspired but now... I feel lethargic and apathetic toward my life... so much that I am even starting to doubt my own feelings on a MA in Media Studies... which those who really know me might meet with disbelief...

I feel lonely much of the time... I dont even want to post this... maybe i wont... but really thats what this is for. for me to remember how i feel and what I am going through, what I am doing and thinking. So fuck it. Those of you that read it I don't want to feel bad for me, we all have little things we think, and any one who is around when I am watching arrested development (one of my new fav. shows) would really see that I am not at all depressed or down though.

I really do want to see mountains again... maybe after I get off the island I'll take a month and go traveling around our country. I haven't see much of it after all... The problem of course being i'd have to go alone, and i'd have very little money. Maybe I can make it work... sleep in the car at rest areas etc... anyone want to go? It's all stupid anyway, it will never happen.

I really am looking forward to this summer, but I feel like I will be missing my family. When I left for college Evan was 12, and Brock was 15... now Brock is 21 and Evan is 19... time really does fly... I love my family... Dad is 60 and Mom is fast approaching it... I don't want kids anytime soon but I am the oldest and I really hope beyond anything that my kids will get to know my parents...

This has all been ramblings and whatnot... i really don't know what to say... but sometimes when you don't know what to say you just let your fingers do the talking...

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

The Brothers Chaps: Interview on Pulse

I love dees guys.

Check me out! No really check me out!

i'm in the news again!

Tuesday, April 17, 2007


Recent research on bread indicates that:

1. More than 98 percent of convicted felons are bread users.
2. Fully HALF of all children who grow up in bread-consuming households score below average on standardized tests.
3. In the 18th century, when virtually all bread was baked in the home, the average life expectancy was less than 50 years; infant mortality rates were unacceptably high; many women died in childbirth; and diseases such as typhoid, yellow fever, and influenza ravaged whole nations.

4. More than 90 percent of violent crimes are committed within 24 hours of eating bread.
5. Bread is made from a substance called "dough." It has been proven that as little as one pound of dough can be used to suffocate a mouse. The average American eats more bread than that in one month!

6. Primitive tribal societies that have no bread exhibit a low incidence of cancer, Alzheimer's, Parkinson's disease, and osteoporosis.
7. Bread has been proven to be addictive. Subjects deprived of bread and given only water to eat begged for bread after as little as two days.
8. Bread is often a "gateway" food item, leading the user to "harder" items such as butter, jelly, peanut butter, and even cold cuts.
9. Bread has been proven to absorb water. Since the human body is more than 90 percent water, it follows that eating bread could lead to your body being taken over by this absorptive food product, turning you into a soggy, gooey bread-pudding person.

10. Newborn babies can choke on bread.
11. Bread is baked at temperatures as high as 400 degrees Fahrenheit! That kind of heat can kill an adult in less than one minute.
12. Most American bread eaters are utterly unable to distinguish between significant scientific fact and meaningless statistical babbling.

In light of these frightening statistics, it has been proposed that the following bread restrictions be made:

1. No sale of bread to minors.
2. A nationwide "Just Say No To Toast" campaign, complete celebrity TV spots and bumper stickers.
3. A 300 percent federal tax on all bread to pay for all the societal ills we might associate with bread.
4. No animal or human images, nor any primary colors (which may appeal to children) may be used to promote bread usage.
5. The establishment of "Bread-free" zones around schools.

This article was written by B.S. Wheatberry in a desert after consuming mass quantities of yeast bread then realizing his canteen was empty. (seriously :-P )

Friday, April 13, 2007

Easter and Centrism

After reading and then posting a comment on my friend's blog i thought about it... and:

we don't do anything religious for easter... no prayer no talk of jesus, nothing.

I vaguely recall my mother trying to bring it all into perspective on why we celebrate easter at all in our house by talking about jesus one year... but that kind of went to the wayside like getting presents on jesus' birthday.

All in all chocolate eggs abound we sit down to our feast of Arroz Con Pollo made by my dad (who always says something is wrong with it, either too dry too mushy too much of this too little of that etc) and ate jelly beans while drinking champagne.

It's a pretty sweet deal -secular Easter- it's about a good as secular Christmas, family getting together to eat and be merry, not bad at all. And i don't have to pass any ham with a side of christian-guilt either.

thats my 2 cents.

I am no fan of religion myself, anyone who knows me is pretty familiar with this, but I am not against it either. People who need/want to find direction or a community or something often find church. But with all of this talk about ethnocentrism does not anyone remember Christan-centrism?

I don't know if it is a coined term, but it should be. And if it's not I am coining it now.

It's a big deal so stop laughing! It's just as unfortunate as heterocentrism (which is a word btw). Imagine if you will, a group of friends telling a joke and using the oh-so-lovely word "fag" in your punchline... or perhaps calling some really unbeknownst thing someone did/saw "gay" which is of course a regular thing at many a masculine encounter.

Now, lets imagine one of the number, unbeknownst to the others, is quite homosexual but doesn't feel comfortable telling anyone - perhaps because of their comments? They may have really hurt/insulted their friend by saying these horrible things (implying Gays are odd/stupid/fucked up).

Of course this is all hypothetical... A more real situation would be: at a bar with friends and someone uses one of these words loud enough so a stranger could hear it and THEY get offended... It's kind of like the N-word. It's not nice, not decent, and is a term one doesn't ususally hear in civilzed conversation. One can easily imagine the nice feelings you drum up when assuming everyone is a hetero... Kind of like talking as if everyone in the room is white and then suddenly you realize that's not the case... How interesting a result that is eh?

moving on...

The other day I was reading a friend's away message about a final goodbye to get aunt/godmother and it said something to the affect:

"if you pray please keep me and my family in your prayers tomorrow"

Now some of you might not think anything of that... but for me this meant a lot, and so I sent her a message thanking her for letting those of us that don't pray (but aren't agnostic necessarily) a way to participate in the sending off of a loved one. People usually say, "keep [person] in your prayers," however then I can't say to them 'oh well i dont pray but i'll keep them in my thoughts! Which isn't that just as good? I thought a lot about my friend over the next few days and hoped she was better. I didn't pray, I didn't ask any dieties to help her... but in my own way I wanted her to feel better.

I don't know why I decided to post on this, but in the Spring Festival (bunnies are for shagging - eggs are for fertility, makes sense to me!) I wanted to just comment on someone who - unknowingly as it were - looked outside of her own religious affection and got even more.

I did go to Church, for years and years, not on Sunday because my parents liked to sleep in so I went on my own every Wednesday for years, and then to Vacation Bible School in the summers, got saved a couple of times to make sure it stuck... but as I grew up my analytical mind couldn't take the inconsistencies and the prejudice of the church, the competition of one religion against another, so eventually I decided it wasn't for me and now I am in a much better place.

It's a kickin' place where my god(s) love me and I love them, but we also have a mutual understanding to not really acknowledge each other so we don't offend anyone else. (S)He/It/They understand.

Bottom line. Easter food is good and my Dad needs to cook more. Christian-centrism is not as good and it's really nice when people recognize that not everyone around is a Christian. I like it an I appreciate it...

To end, I quote Ferris, "Ism's in my opinion are not good. I quote John Lennon, 'A person should not believe in an -ism they should believe in themself.' Good point there after all he was the walrus."

Saturday, April 07, 2007

tonight i made bruchetta, drank sangria and watched stranger than fiction.

i really love life today.

that film was amazing and today was both productive and fun. i really like today.

maybe someday i will be a successful someone... with the amount of praise i get, even from near strangers... i should be something... someone... anyone...

i miss life. i love life. i live life.

someday life will be.